Just got home from dinner at Mexico with Pat. We tried out their winter menu that has just been launched a few days ago and the food was really lovely. Pat had a glass of white wine and I had a glass of Pinot noir. We only had one drink each but the alcohol kicked in pretty fast and I talked a lot during our conversation. Works, money, relationships, etc. typical girl talks. It was nice to see her again, after quite a long time.
I was thinking about him the whole evening. I got excited and a bit nervous when I was in the car down to Britomart. What if we bumped into each other? What if he accidentally saw me and I looked like a mess and my hair wasn’t nice? What if I saw him and my heart skipped a beat? What if…? What if…?
It’s been so long.
Why am I doing all these things this time?
Why am I still missing him so much like this?
When I was in the car going pass his apartment, I got so sad. I really miss him. I wondered if he’s still living there. I wondered if he’s with someone now.
I just really miss him. I don’t know why.
I was crying when I got home and wrote my diary for the day.
I really miss him.
“Unchained Melody” – Norah Jones.
I wish I knew of this song earlier. I wish I played it when we were together.
I miss you.
The memories of us stay in my heart like an unchained melody
I wish one day I could bring your love back to me.