“Sometimes the thing you most want doesn’t happen”.
I was browsing on Tumblr and accidently saw this quote. I found it quite right. It’s right not just about love but also about anything else in life. There’re countless times I expected something to happen then eventually it never did. Seeing the quote today made me sad. I don’t know why. I never hope I find perfection in life. It’s just sometimes things do not happen the way they should or they do not happen at all. It made me think of him (again). I know I’m hopeless. I know I’m not gonna be anything to him. He doesn’t care. He never does anyway. I continue hoping just because sometimes when I’m with him, I see a different person in him, the person who I’m in love with. That is not a neglectful broken guy everybody often sees but someone with a beautiful soul, someone who I forever want to be with. I’ve been trying. I’ve been showing my affections and all my care for him. When I’m with him and kiss him on his neck, I whisper softly in his ears that I miss him a lot. However, he never does anything like that in return. Sometimes he makes me feel like he’s using me even though he never treats me with low respect. I know I shouldn’t have been like this. I want to be with him but it will not happen, in reality.
I’ve been drawing and the result turns out quite well. I posted some of my drawings to Facebook or Instagram and people’s reaction is pretty positive. I’ll show you some of my works. I’m just 21. It’s time to have fun, not to be blue, isn’t it?