Thing don’t happen the way we want

“Sometimes the thing you most want doesn’t happen”.

I was browsing on Tumblr and accidently saw this quote. I found it quite right. It’s right not just about love but also about anything else in life. There’re countless times I expected something to happen then eventually it never did. Seeing the quote today made me sad. I don’t know why. I never hope I find perfection in life. It’s just sometimes things do not happen the way they should or they do not happen at all. It made me think of him (again). I know I’m hopeless. I know I’m not gonna be anything to him. He doesn’t care. He never does anyway. I continue hoping just because sometimes when I’m with him, I see a different person in him, the person who I’m in love with. That is not a neglectful broken guy everybody often sees but someone with a beautiful soul, someone who I forever want to be with. I’ve been trying. I’ve been showing my affections and all my care for him. When I’m with him and kiss him on his neck, I whisper softly in his ears that I miss him a lot. However, he never does anything like that in return. Sometimes he makes me feel like he’s using me even though he never treats me with low respect. I know I shouldn’t have been like this. I want to be with him but it will not happen, in reality.

I’ve been drawing and the result turns out quite well. I posted some of my drawings to Facebook or Instagram and people’s reaction is pretty positive. I’ll show you some of my works. I’m just 21. It’s time to have fun, not to be blue, isn’t it?



9 Films That Try To Understand Love

have to find n watch them all…

Thought Catalog

Unlike most movies concerned with love, these films attempt to get at what really goes down in relationships. Basketcase characters troubled with age gaps, loneliness, death, and mental illness offer more insight on relationships than the typical “indie quirky love” or rom com. For those who get off on realism, these onscreen relationships will make you go, “Aha! I’ve felt that before. That’s so true!”

He Loves Me… He Loves Me Not (À la folie… pas du tout) (2002, dir. Laetitia Colombani)

Watch Angelique’s (Audrey Tautou) obsessive tendencies. Relate. Once the film’s point of view shifts and presents Angelique’s lover’s outlook, reevaluate crushing behavior. Walk away considering the possibility that there’s a reason you get too infatuated with people. It’s okay, you might just be crazy. Now go see a psychiatrist.

Anything Else (2003, dir. Woody Allen)

Despite Amanda Chase’s (Christina Ricci) baggage (an eating disorder and a mother who crashes…

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The 7 Questions That Tell You Who You Are

Thought Catalog

Many of the answers we’re seeking are answers we already have. We just don’t know how to access them. Understanding who you are isn’t something you stumble upon one day. It’s embedded within you; you just have to be vulnerable long enough to uncover it. Your everyday actions are shouting what you may not be conscious of.

1. What would you do with your life if you didn’t have to pay the bills? If money weren’t an issue, what would you do with your days? Would you write? Read? Sing? Whatever it is, you have to do that thing. Money is an interesting phenomenon that completely controls our everyday lives without having any purpose other than sustainability in the form of purchasing from others what we could produce and create right in our own backyards. Consider that when you’re deciding between a soulless job that will make you rich versus…

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Why You’re Single

Thought Catalog

You’re single because you’re single. It’s not because you texted too much or too little or waited 33 minutes to respond because he took 23. It’s not because you met up with your ex that night at 5 a.m. that no one knows about, or because you kissed another boy after a date with a loser.

You’re not single because you spit food on that date or tripped coming out the the movie theatre. You’re not single because you hurt your first boyfriend really badly when you were 15 or because you have yet, to this day, to apologize. It’s not because you were secretly jealous when your friend got a boyfriend or that a guy you dated for two months now has a really cute girlfriend and looks really happy. And you’re happy for him. But still ill that he found someone before you.

You’re not single because you…

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And if I was honest,

you remind me of all the gentle things in life,

like tea when it’s cold,

and big sweaters to sleep in.

You remind me if all the safe things in life,

like a hand to hold,

and a shoulder to lean on.

You remind me if all the reasons to take a chance,

like when things seem out of reach,

and a place seems so far away.

You remind me of all the beautiful things in life,

like the sky when the sun sets,

and the way your face lights up when you smile…



My Keanu


I saw this on Facebook today and honestly, I never knew about this before even though Keanu Reeves has always been one of my favorite actors. He may not feel happy enough on the inside to believe he is ‘living’. But clearly he’s strength to still be here, push on and spread love where he can proves there is Live, Love and internal Strength in him. Maybe he can no longer see it due to his painful past. But it is there, and he’s giving of time, money and sharing of his food is the greatest gift to give a stranger… Even if in this case that stranger his himself!

This guy reading the newspaper on the subway is Keanu Reeves.

He is from a problematic family. His father was arrested when he was 12 for drug dealing and his mother was a stripper. His family moved to Canada and there he had several step dads.

He watched his girlfriend die. They were about to get married, and she died in a car accident. And also before that she had lost her baby. Since then Keanu avoids serious relationships and having kids.

He’s one of the only Hollywood stars without a Mansion. He said: ‘I live in a flat, I have everything that I need at anytime, why choose an empty house?’

One of his best friends died by overdose, he was River Phoenix (Joaquin Phoenix’s brother). Almost in the same year Keanu’s father was arrested again.

His younger sister had leukemia. Today she is cured, and he donated 70% of his gains from the movie Matrix to Hospitals that treat leukemia.

In one of his birthdays, he got to a little candy shop and bought him a cake, and started eating alone. If a fan walked by he would talk to them and offer some of the cake.

He doesn’t have bodyguards, and he doesn’t wear fancy clothes.

When they asked him about ‘Sad Keanu’, he replied: ‘You need to be happy to live, I don’t.'”